Positive thinking

8/24/08
Since being back from my trip, a lot of things have come up against me to try to drag me down. I have been looking to buy a house and was approved for a loan through Rural Development. The day after getting home from my trip I received a letter in the mail saying the government program I am going through (R.D.) is having a shortage of funds and they would not be able to provide me a loan at this time. I said a prayer and told myself it must not be my time and God would provide me a house when he wanted me to have one. A couple days later, my realtor called and told me she found the perfect house for me. I had to inform her of the bad news and told her I did not want to see it, fall in love with it and not be able to get it. She had never heard of this program running out of funds like this and asked to see my letter. She did some research and found out it was true. We decided to put my house search on hold. I was starting to feel discouraged. I have been looking for a house for over a year and have never found a house I liked. My realtor was so positive this was the perfect house for me and now it was not possible to get it. I continued to pray about it and felt a peace that God will work my house situation out in his time and it was pointless to worry about it.

A few days later, my realtor called me back. As it turns out, the seller of "my perfect house" went through the same program I am going through. We learned it would be possible to transfer her loan over to me. I went to see the house and I LOVE it! Today I made an offer on it! Everything will depend upon getting the loans transferred over to me and whether we can negotiate a price we are both happy with. If this is the house for us, God will make it happen. If it doesn't work out, I know God will provide a better home for Kameron and I.

I have also been struggling with Kam and with work since my return home. Kameron has been acting out a LOT and has seemed to forget all of his rules. Basically he is acting his age (3) but it is hard to digest when I know he knows better most of the time. At work, I have been struggling with several issues but the more I pray about it, God helps me get through it and has been building relationships between me and other followers of Christ that I work with. It is nice to be able to talk about God with people I work with every day. Besides my trip, the latest book I just got done reading has been a HUGE topic of discussion. I would highly recommend everyone reading THE SHACK by William P. Young. A word of advice...do NOT read chapter 4 at bedtime. The book is descriptive and images from that chapter haunted me all night one night. After Chapter 4, everything gets so much better! I will not spoil it though. It is an AMAZING book!